I seriously feel I’m better off dead. Like I hate being here, so miserable and fucking unhappy. There’s nothing I want more than to get the fuck away from here, but that still won’t change the fact of the reason i’m like this. I wish things would go back to how they used to be a year ago. :((

Fuck today.. Today, this date in December, two years ago. I never regretted something so damn much. Not because I didn’t enjoy it, but because I know if I wouldn’t have said “Yes” we wouldn’t be where we are today. Hating each other and not speaking, all I want is my bestfriend back. I miss you so much it completely breaks me. I hate it. I miss the person I used to call my bestfriend and the person that’d always be there for me no matter what. I hate how much someone can change. I don’t get how you can just walk away from the one person that was once your bestfriend, your whole world and just never speak to them, look at them or even the littlest wave to them wouldn’t happen. I wish things would change.